l o s t

2007-12-12T22:26:00.001+08:00

rawr. i am damn freaking tired. have been working at this ulu place at bukit timah called cluny court. which is beside serene centre. so tiring. and i just spent my pay on two skirts! okay. one for interview tmr. and the other just a random skirt. haha. so i am left with like abt zero dollar. rawr. heart pain. freaking tireddddddddddddddddddddddd. quite scared for tmr's interview at kpmg. wish me luck(:

2007-12-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

NOT IN A good mood.

2007-05-11T21:26:00.001+08:00

shifted.
gdbye.

2007-05-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

gwh (:

go sops (: all the way.

sov next.

jiayou.
wooooooooSH.
sops.

mday.):

2007-05-08T23:56:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kX8yR0hjb5M&mode=related&search=

i miss lesmis. too.

2007-05-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WBgx6uDC02o

): i miss 4e6.

2007-05-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

whats wrong with everyone recently?.

2.4 is finally over. phew. 14 mins plus i think. okay. sastified. other than the fact that my leg is hurting like shit.

choir just ended.
in a totally pissifying mood still.
wadeva.

anyway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD(:

idontdeservethis.

argh.three things for me to be irritated abt. argh. rar. GDBYE.

2007-05-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

2007-05-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

EMO!

oliver,huping.wanting.me.

may,yuting

just a wish(:

HA. zhaoey said enjoy your run tmr
and she meant it.
hahahah. damn hilarious.

okay.

i just hope i dont like suddenly tear while running. just like wad happened to my mock napfa. haha. ask me why. and i will say i dunno.

cosh i relli dont.

2007-05-03T20:09:00.000+08:00

yppah

era

gnol

2007-05-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

emoshitxz

it doesn help feeling emo
but i cant help feeling emo.
crapxz.

once again.

wadever.

2007-05-03T19:51:00.000+08:00

i used to have the determination.
but i think. its all gone now.
kinda.

anyway, great song.

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

anyway,point understood-ED

sochill yea.

hey

2007-05-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

flyyy awayyyy

finally went for voice lesson. hmm. the last time i went for voice was like 7th of jan. cool huh. and so many things have happened since then. sigh. :'( mhmm. then after that went home. took a bus. yawn. long journey. 65. brings back memories again. uhuhh.. yea.

shucks. there's napfa tmr. so gonna fail. seriously. sighh. crap.
the worse thing my leg will just be like SUPER pain after that. and i wont be able to walk on sat.

great.

wadeva.

tired.

2007-05-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

yuting. wanting. me ((:

<33

i love this shot(:

hahha.. retarded photo. check out wanting's hair!

yay.

2007-05-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

keep it up sops(:

aye.

2007-05-01T23:15:00.001+08:00

bei ni gao de tuan tuan chuan.

(: ?

2007-05-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

long ago.

from then.
u turned away.
numbed.
immuned.

fell real hard.
sank real deep.

and i've made a fool out of myself.
oh. look what u have done.
my pride.
nothing is left.

till when.
perhaps.
till then.

when the sky falls.

2007-05-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

when was the first

when was the last.

2007-05-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

maybe i am just thinking too much.
too much for my own gd.
but still.

was somehow looking forward to choir prac today. but blah. didnt really went well hur. at least not to me. hmm.ahh. pretty stress out by syf. hmm. just like when i was sec four ): ahh. i just hope that everything will be alright i hope.

just came back from home not long ago. went out with that bunch of ppl to celebrate may's birthday. went to marina square to eat . cafe cartel. so retarded can. at first went to swensens. then me and lili told the waitress like 9 ppl and etc liao. then the person went to arrange the table and all. then in the end. that bunch of ppl decided to go cafe cartel. AH. being so nice (: i told the waiter like. sorry. okay.damn malu can. okay. thats seriously not the point..

okay. so apparently i shared some seafood combo thing with yuting huping and Lili. haha. yea. shldnt have ate that though. kinda burnt a hole in my wallet. AH. okay. oh wells. plus the fact that i think i am allegic to prawn makes it worse. hahah. oh wells. perhaps i am not.

so after that. went to the err. merlion place. haha. duno wads its called. the whole stretch of bridge thingy.. kinda nice (: and took lots of photo there. pretty fun. memories(: i will always remember.

anyway, yes. shall wait for lili for the photos..

thats just how my day went. pretty nice and sweet day. .i would say

but still

ache.

i love that bunch of ppl(:

that is plus my girlfriend SHIXUAN.

ever cared abt how i feel?-

that aside. we made a pact to meet each other. on the 20.10.2010. at 2010.
at the ferris wheel.
till then (to that bunch of ppl)

investiture tmr. and sound check.
pretty drained.
and tired.

2007-04-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

falling underneath.

damn stress.

syf.

sov.

half an hour more to may's birthday. so

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY~((:

2007-04-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

so why not u kill me

so i will die happy.

2007-04-29T00:12:00.001+08:00

i cant sleep.

2007-04-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

arghhh. i took like 1 hr plus to download some photoshop thing to revamp my blog. but guess wad. the smart me just deleted the whole program. argh.

plus the fact that i am freaking hungry now makes me even more irritated. arghh..

in addition. i suddenly feel kinda stress over syf. ha. cant wait for it to be over. but then again. once its over. there comes sov. and after sov. and probably. its abt time for the year twos to step down.

from tkgschoir. to vjchoir.
wad a journey.

its been

almost a year.

2007-04-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

2007-04-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm. currently at wanting's house. just went to the gym((: ahaha. an attempt to train my pathetic and weak arms (: lolx. for napfa of course. pretty successful..arms so tired to the extent that typing an entry kinda hurts.. ah wells. apparently choir started at 830 today and surprisingly i managed to crawl out of my bed at 745 though i slept at 1am last night. couldn really sleep :/ that feeling is like totally yucky. seriously. . pretty tired now. but. ahhh. i need to stay awake during tuition later. blurghx.and common tests are around the corner. like once again. shucks. yea. but nehmind. ha. i miss being a year one. or even sec four. though there's prelims and olevels. there was time to play. and like really enjoy kinda thing. but for now. nah. perhaps i just need to manage my time better and spend my time wisely (: afterall, this is gonna be my last year in vj. ):
okay. pretty random.
i dont understand myself anymorre.. . . ..
trying.

2007-04-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

-toomuchtosay.

once again.

2007-04-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

went to eat with may and wanting at mos just now. hmm. mos. brings back lots of memories(: haha. hmm. quite a few things on my mind now... was talking to wanting. then i realised.
sagittarius. haha. lots of similarities. \

okay. lots to blog abt. but i cant. there is just two things thats on my mind now.......
):

ever

euuu

so gonna fall sick

-rain rain go away.

2007-04-24T21:25:00.001+08:00

wonderful song

In his eyes

i sit and watch the rain
and see my tears run down the window pane
i sit and watch the sky
and i can hear it heave a sigh.

i think of him, how we were.
and when i think of him, then i remember.
remember....

in his eyes, i can see
where my heart longs to be.
In his eyes i see a gentle glow
and thats where i'll be safe i know.

safe in his arms
close to his heart
but i don't know quite where to start.

by looking in his eyes,
will i see beyond tomorrow?
by looking in his eyes,
will i see beyond the sorrow that i feel?

will his eyes reveal to me
promises or lies?
But he cant conceal from me the love
in his eyes

they're like an open book, his eyes!
I know their every look, his eyes!
and most of all the look that hypnotized me!

If I'm wise,
i will walk away and gladly..
But sadly,
i'm not wise, its hard to walk away,
the memories.
that you prized.

love is worth forgiving for
now i realize
everything worth living for is there
in his eyes.

Love is worth forgiving for.
now i realize.
everything worth living for is there.
in his eyes.

2007-04-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

wonderful song

2007-04-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

i doubt anyone understands how i feel. hm.
i mean. now.

lets see.. how many things on my mind now....
1
2
3
4
5
. oh lala.

i seriously feel screwed. once again.

once again. i will have to overcome all the abt.
like seriously. wads new.

2007-04-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

to probe.
or to let it rest.

another decision.

VJChoir presents to YOU

SOV on the 15th of may 2007

$21, esplanade.

get tickets from ME

hope to see u there.

2007-04-17T20:00:00.001+08:00

blah. really destest this world. okay. to a certain extent.

its just like when u have so many things bottled up . and no matter how hard i try to pour it out. hm. it doesnt seem to end.
coolx man.
river nvr runs dry.

sex education thing is morning was pretty cool, haha.

got A for my pw. yea. i guess its the only reason why i shld feel happy.

2007-04-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

got A for my pw. yea. i guess its the only reason why i shld feel happy.

2007-04-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

STARBUCKS!((:

went with huping and wanting on friday. heh.

anyway, went to shop today. heh.

2007-04-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

hmm. music fest was not too bad. (: proud of u oliver!! pao too whoohoo congrats to genrong! .hmm went for supper after that with wanting may and shixuan at xinwang. reach home pretty late. the taxi driver was driving at such a speed that i thought i might get flunk out of the cab. mhmmm.
auditions today. so much to say.
blurgh..

ah will blog mre next time. need to rush to my aunt's house.

u fine?

isuppose.

2007-04-11T12:14:00.001+08:00

"Hands Down"

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

2007-04-11T09:56:00.000+08:00

a wound that can nvr healed.

hmm. haven been online for one week plus already. its like so not me. Few months ago, coming online is like a must. regardless of whats happening. i would always be online.. hmm. but somehow, though i reach home kinda early recently, i cant be bothered to on my comp. hehs. perhaps its time to cancel my broadband and use dial-up instead. mhhm.

life is pretty much screwed up. like as usual.

tutorials are piling up once again. no mood to do them all. hehs. perhaps lazy is a better term? i reckon so.

let me sleep.. (:

how come i feel fine putting up a front. hm. this is bad.
where am i
who am i

music fest this friday. hooray.

if its not so weird.

Hey hey, you you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey hey, you you
I could be your girlfriend
.
She's like so whatever
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about

tah-dah

just u

2007-04-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

got this from oliver's blog. pretty nice.

the greatest tragedy in life is having someone right in front of you, but not getting to say i love you.

says something, treasure every single person in your life.

2007-04-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

missed.

would it have been easier if.

2007-04-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

its been a long time ever since i came online. hmm.

first of all. congrats to all the top ten (:

sherwin
melodie
marianne
reuben
desmond
jialing
xianyong
ching chieh
pao
anthony

all the best yea(:

and music co.
whoohoo.

isabelle.wayne.novabelle.martin.rayrin

hehs. i still can remember the interview with some of the people. damn interesting. but still. long and draggy...............

yupps. thats for today. hmm. oh yea, and my pathetic results. CEES. could have gotten D instead of Es. okay. nvm. its okay.

mhmm.. i realised something.. perhaps its something for u guys to ponder abt.. after so many ups and downs. i think to me . its like countless. .hehs.. with so many thing happening around me or like. yea. oh wells ): maybe u guys are right. its for me to learn and to grow stronger. and i believe. and i hope i did.(: . alrighty. so my main point is that time will not stop. time will not stop for u to be sad. to feel pissed off and etc.. ... so. its more practical to just like. pick urself up and move on. coz time is precious. and the time spend being sad isnt gonna help anything. isit? . oh wells. i mean. its fine and perfectly normal to feel sad and pissed off, i my shoes i must add. i reckon. oh wells. i have given myself one week to relax. to brood over wadeva i want to brood abt. to let it all out. and etc.. so perhaps its really time to pick myself up and continue this journey. called life...

however, on the flip side. i cant get myself to start work. somehow my mind will just wonder off. somehow. but i believe with determination . i will. and i can..

as i noe. time will not stop. for me. for anyone.

time to pick myself up. and carry on.

some may say that i am decieving myself. or like. pretend and like try to be fake. er. wadsoever la. cant really find a term to describe it. but seriously, would it make things better if i show my true feelings?

no. it wont..

and with so many things come crashing down. i realise that its really up to me. and everything is really up to me. not excatly choice. but the way i wanna feel. in life. . being independent and learning not to rely too much is sometimes good. dont u think so? haha. but sometimes its tiring to keep everythingn in too though.

with such things happening to me. i began to wonder. what is life. what is so worth while in life that is allowing this energy or this determination that is in me to fight and be strong?

and last but not least..

i really wana thank all my friends. okay. at least those who have always been there for me. mentally supporting me or like physically supporting me. okay. wadeva that means. (: hehs. and many thanks for those who cares(:

THANKS

2007-03-16T19:21:00.001+08:00

fucked up.

2007-03-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

okay, one reason that i changed back to his url. AH. my relatives came my house and use the comp X.X so apparently my blog is like homepage. and they took note of my url. blurgh. okay. wadeva. so i just gotta change back to the old one i suppose..

hehs.

gd bye.

its hanakimi. time

2006-10-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

er.

eh?

conditionalpromotion.ohwells. all thanks to my gp. haha. nebermind

theory exam tomolo

DIE. aH.

wad am i doing.

2006-10-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

taken from wanting's blogg

LES MISERABLES

VJ PERFORMANCE THEATRE

1st DECEMBER 2006(8days before my b'day:P)

$12 only!7.30pm

buytixfrom me((:

<3>

2006-10-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

damn.
shit.
oh no.

2006-10-24T13:56:00.000+08:00

2006-10-24T13:52:00.000+08:00

everytime i look at you

I used to think that i was strong
i realise now i was wrong
cause everytime i see your face
my mind becomes an empty space
and with you lying next to me
feels like i can hardly breathe

i close my eyes
the moment i surrender to you
let love be blind
innocent and tenderly true
so lead me through tonite
but please turn out the light
cause im lost everytime i look at you

and in the morning when you go
wake me gently so ill know
that loving you was not a dream
and whisper softly what it means to be with me
then every moment we're apart
will be a lifetime to my heart

i close my eyes
the moment i surrender to you
let love be blind
innocent and tenderly true
so lead me through tonite
but please turn out the light
cause im lost everytime i look at you
lost everytime i look at

2006-10-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

yuck. having sore throat. can just die now. super pain. -i'll endure.
yuck. pw. - i'll survive
yuck. chinese-i'll be fine
yuck. theory-come wad may. HA./
-be strong.

((:

i can. and i will.

2006-10-21T16:42:00.000+08:00

everytime i look at you

I used to think that i was strong
i realise now i was wrong
cause everytime i see your face
my mind becomes an empty space
and with you lying next to me
feels like i can hardly breathe

i close my eyes
the moment i surrender to you
let love be blind
innocent and tenderly true
so lead me through tonite
but please turn out the light
cause im lost everytime i look at you

and in the morning when you go
wake me gently so ill know
that loving you was not a dream
and whisper softly what it means to be with me
then every moment we're apart
will be a lifetime to my heart

i close my eyes
the moment i surrender to you
let love be blind
innocent and tenderly true
so lead me through tonite
but please turn out the light
cause im lost everytime i look at you
lost everytime i look at

2006-10-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

from
SSSS EA
to
EEES SA
yucks

okay. thats not really much of an improvement eh?.though i studied like a mad pig. wadeva. at least i tried. crap.

when will i get Ds and Cs. .

yawn.

tired and sick of everythingg.

2006-10-21T14:21:00.002+08:00

screwed.

just realised that i have my theory exam next sat. how great. or rather. how screwed.-pains-

and 5 days after tat i have my chinese exam. yuck.

and like a few days after that i have my OP.

yuck.

so screwed.

5 days to study chinese....doubt its enough.

eeks. yucks...

2006-10-21T14:21:00.001+08:00

screwed.

just realised that i have my theory exam next sat. how great. or rather. how screwed.-pains-

and 5 days after tat i have my chinese exam. yuck.

and like a few days after that i have my OP.

yuck.

so screwed.

5 days to study chinese....doubt its enough.

eeks. yucks...

2006-10-21T14:21:00.000+08:00

screwed.

just realised that i have my theory exam next sat. how great. or rather. how screwed.-pains-

and 5 days after tat i have my chinese exam. yuck.

and like a few days after that i have my OP.

yuck.

so screwed.

5 days to study chinese....doubt its enough.

eeks. yucks...

2006-10-19T20:35:00.000+08:00

l o s t

i no longer know my true identity.

save me.

kill me.

wad do i want.

beats me.

save me.

wad i feel.

kill me.

L O S T

---------------------------------

failed my gp.-ruined my day.

fine. i deserve that then.

2006-10-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

passed my history. phewww.

alrighty.

sick.

thanks to the haze.

blurgh.

kon-fused.

2006-10-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

come wad may

2006-10-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

lots to update. hm. i think. wadeva.
okay. got back econs. maths. and er. physics. i mean the full paper. sianed. S E E. SIGH. okay. i shall be contented. since its already an improve yeah? okay. so wadeva. hmm. anyway, yea. most probably will fail my gp, then history, i have no idea. sigh. yea. thats abt it. -my results. lol

okay. other than that, life is weird. dun ask me why. just. yeah. hm. i wonder.
hehs.
-evil grin(:

-wonder-

2006-10-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

crap

2006-10-12T19:34:00.000+08:00

if i nvr knew love.

.by savage garden

I’m searching the skies hopin’ to see

If there’s someone out there for me

Who will set my poor heart free

2006-10-12T02:17:00.000+08:00

i hate myself.
i cant help it.

bye.

2006-10-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

but if i let u go

i will nvr noe.

2006-10-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

tiring day. damn tired. ah. hahaha. okay. funny day. here it goes.
woke up like hmm. 10 i think. okay. then laze around. then decided that its time for me to shower. then suddenly i realised that i forgot where i have placed my entry proof. haha. out of a sudden. so i frantically look for it. haha. then thats like hmm. so i took out every single file and look for it . without realising that i was messing up my room too. lolx. then i took another hour to pack my room. which i think is super neat now (: haha. yea. then yes, i found my entry proof in the end. lolx. then was late for like one hr plus :X sorry xinyi and char. hehs. bought a nice shirt. okay. super random. yeah. then after that went to meet huping. shixuan. yuting. dawn. oliver. johnnie. daniel. yizha. wanting. to watch. world trade center. okay. nice show. i mean. touching lah. haiz. hmm. anyway, that aside, i cant wait for open house actually. i dunno why :P haha. okay. nvm. other than that, i think its time for me to sleep. ha. no. maybe not. nitez. ((:

m .x. d

2006-10-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

distracted.-?

no school((:

cheers.

the feeling is nice.

ifeel.

2006-10-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

it doesnt seems that its over.

ha. promo.

2006-10-08T11:19:00.000+08:00

CHALET WAS FUN.

haha. quite fun lah.

ah. they going escape today

hahahahah.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. off i go.............................
reconsider.
understand or not.
ha.
probably the latter.

2006-10-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

the distance

sometimes.

dunudreamtosoarupthesky.

freedomm.

lookingdown n all.

being light.

weightless...

and.

free...

iamtrying.

ignoranceisbliss

perhaps.

2006-10-05T15:41:00.000+08:00

PROMO IS FINALLY OVER

((:
okay
screwed up practically EVERYTHING. haha. serious. hmm. lets start from the being. econs-i didnt really answer the question. haha. as in. like not in the same context -singapore. i just like write abt it neutral kind. yea. so its kinda screwed. case study i just whack.
physics-wtf.enoughsaid.
history.-okay. at first thought it was actually fine. like can pass. but realised that EVEN though i studied like SHIT for history, i didnt manage have the bloody time to stuff it into my essay. furthermore, my points are EVERYWHERE. so its like. er. if i pass. it will be pure luck. coz i think the more i read at the question, the more blur i become. so. might fail
maths-AHHHHHHH. I HATE MYSELF. BY Right i should pass maths. its like my onli hope for promos. i mean not to get retain lah. i need one E! so i thought maths can get E. then like WTH. i didnt check my GC setting properly. so my graph thingy is like WRONG. ARGHHh. so irritating . then i made quite a no. of careless mistake. ARGHHH. so if i pass maths,i will pass by a bit. if fail. also by a little. ARGHH

that means. i am not confident of ANY of my subjects. i mean. not even one tat i can say that i will pass.
so that is equal to

i might get retain..
thats the reality. okay.

serious.
sigh/
perhaps my method of studying is wrong.
argh.

butihopeicanpullthrough.

maths.

if they mark leniently.

acks. then that means. er. 3R papers. yuck.ew. thats disguisting. okay.

better than getting retain.

reality sucks.

dreammmmworrllddd.((:

idreamadream

chinese tomolo~ hooray. then yay. over . but my heart is not light at all. its rather heavy. somehow. think i am worried abt my maths. i noe that there s no use worrying. arh. but i cant help it. I NEED TO PASS MY MATHS. at least maths. arghhhh.

-anywaythanks to those who were there for me during the past few dayss((:

2006-09-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

patience.

andiwonderwhy..

stress.

stresss

stressss

stresssss.

but i will be fine.

yeah.

uhuh.

giveup?

2006-09-30T13:13:00.000+08:00

hey ho.
okay. i am quite screwed for promos.
yeah. its me ranting again

okay. muahahah. physics and econs paper on monday.
history on wednesday.-yay, tuesday to study((:
maths on thursday-shit. no time to study maths
okay. that leaves me like er. 10 hrs to study chinese. haha. the whole thingy. lolx.

gp sucks

2006-09-23T20:25:00.000+08:00

tiring day.studied quite a lot today. i think. yea. managed to study and i think memorized like er. chapter one to seven of cold war. two more to go. way to go~ hmm. hope i can master this chapter so that can do well for this to pull my SEA up-which i am really tired of studying. so that i will get a S for history. instead of a U. haha. okay. maybe i will pass. hahah. if i pass history.. lolx. yeah. cool subject though, i must admit. one event leads to another. just like life. okay. nvm. history is life. was life. okay. nvm. i dunno wad i toking already. anyway. maths is like horrible can. i nvr study much for maths. onli did rj and hci paper so far.. n tried to master GC. haha. took quite long . dun think i have mastered it yet though. haha. must spend more time with it. hahaha. anyway. yeah. then hmm. formulas not memorised. AH. okay. thats for maths. okay. and 9.1.9.2.9.3 IS KILLING ME! ARGH. okay. err. econs. haha. haven started memorising. but dun think its a lot lah. considered that i dropped to h1. I HOPE. .h aha. the last time i touched econs was like errr. 2 weeks ago? haha. yea. then physics. i must pass physics this time. spent a lot of time studying cum doing it.and have tuition somemore. !!! ARGHH. okay. waste money. okay. hope not wasting lah. so plzplzplzplz. let me pass physics.!!!! okay. that left me with.. er. okay. NO MORE
okay. hang on. there is GP. ah. okay. thats like crazy. hope jonchuah's notes will help me. but i onli started READING on mass media. when Gp is like in errr. 4 days TIME. OMG> 4 days. hmm. COOLOMg. 4 days. wth. shit shit shit. okay. wadeva.
next. HAHAHA. CHINESE - the only subject that i have the chance of getting A. i hope :X . but haven TOUCH my TB. haha. since dunno when. lolx..

THEORY EXAM]
ahhhhhhhhhhh. okay. i am sooo dead for that one can. haish.

cant believe that i can rant n rant abt my studies. omg. haha. thats so shuwei. okay . but see the amount of stress that i am exposed to . hhah. okay. that brings me to another point.
i need to go and study now.

GP IN 4 days timE! AH. and i have been failing my compre lah. can . hahah. like 18/50. 18 X 2 =hmmm. 36. omg. shit. then i have to get like 27 for compo to PASS. omg. thats like . oh no. hope compre will be "understandable" . wish me luck..

year two.

songfortheday

ifyourheart'snotinit -westlife

2006-09-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

one word.

stress

aka

wootx

2006-09-20T16:58:00.000+08:00

mhmm.lousyday.sick

0.O.

accidentally dropped my mp4. damn. now the screen is mad.):

sorryzhaoey

songfortheday

Let me be your hero

by Enrique Iglesias

let me be your hero.

Would you dance,

if I asked you to dance?

Would you run,

and never look back?

Would you cry,if you saw me crying?

And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble,

if I touched your lips?

Would you laugh?

Oh please tell me this.

Now would you die,

for the one you love?

Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

Would you swear,

that you'll always be mine?

Or would you lie?

would you run and hide?

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don't care...

You're here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just wanna to hold you.

I just wanna to hold you.

Oh yeah.Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

Well I don't care...

You're here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

I can kiss away the pain.

And I will stand by you, forever.

You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

2006-09-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

fireworks.

everlasting one..

((:

thanks

2006-09-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

EOM MAKES ME MAD
its already 11.30. but i still cant complete my EOM
i need my sleep. i need to study history. like wad i planned to do today. how great.
only managed to read through history. and like er. 3 physics paper. okay. chill . its only the MCQ that i did.
yeah. thats all.

ifonlyiamnotwhoiamnow

then there is no need for me to be so STRESS.

ahhhhhhhhhh. really going crazy.
dun try to safe me. coz i will pull u down too.

so leave me alone.

no. i dun mean wad i say.

okay. see. this is wad happen if i stay online for too long.

and thats the way.

2006-09-17T12:20:00.000+08:00

uhuh.voice concert. scary.hehs.
okay. other than that .. its fine i suppose
thanks to those who came((:
and those who msged me to wish me all the bestt(:
thanks ((:

tired.

2006-09-11T21:16:00.000+08:00

sian.

sigh.

haish.

2006-09-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

All of your efforts are starting to pay off -- and the lesson you should be learning is that the more you put into something, the more you'll get out of it. There's a lot of balance in your life right now, so be prepared for every action to have an equal reaction. All positives have a corresponding negative, so you need to accept the fact that every silver lining has a cloud. But if you focus on the bright side, you'll keep a positive perspective. ((:

2006-09-09T20:39:00.000+08:00

to all the seniors. heh. gd luck for prelims on monday((:

choirchoirchoir. thats my day.
-cold.
shiverss..

2006-09-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

sianed.

2006-09-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder
whats the meaning of life
if u say everyday's special
that will nvr come across my mind

i declare today is a

EMO DAY

i really do not know

we were once close friends long ago

but we are strangers now

why did it, end this way

i really do not know

it is hard indeed to forget

all those times that we spent then

happy days pass fast

hope the memories will last

oh please s et me free

once with you, now alone

in an empty place

all alone, without you

wondering where i'll go

i am left alone without u

facing this empty world

day pass real slowly

missing you you know

hope that you'll be back one day

why did it, end this way

i really do not know.

2006-09-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

shitty day. didnt do much. read finish physics notes. hmm onli read finish. didnt practice much. managed to finish er. half of superposition tys. haha. shld be able to finish that by today. hmm. planning to do some structured later. and sleep late tonight. plz. allow me to do so. take my bed away from me. just tonight. coz i love my bed. oooh.. okay. hmmm. shall blog abt wednesday.h mm. had history lecture. omg. so sian can . lolx. haha. but managed to like pay attention. hmm. then super tired. after that had choir prac. sian. lolx. but kinda like the musical songss((: cant wait to sing ((: er. not sectionals though XD lolx. err. then after that wanna thank wanting.yuting.daniel.huping.jerrold(correct?).oliver.yizha.may.shixuan. okay. hope i didnt miss anyone else. for accompanying me to bugis haha. needed to pass something to my voice teacherr ((: thanks .h ahah. then went to eat. yummm. wasnt feeling very hungry coz of the milkshake n the mango tango ((: thanks ((: okay. claypot rice. haha. donated 1/4 of it to jerrold. haha. XD lol. haha. then walk around for a while. thennnn

home sweet home.

mmmm

iwantmybednow...

i dream to be me.

to fly high up the sky

darkness with tiny sparkle

on a night.

a lonesome night.

close yer eyes

listen to the sea breeze

cool. calm.

all alone.

again.

2006-09-08T18:26:00.000+08:00

haiz.

2006-09-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/v/D9xU0g7u5Zw" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash">

2006-09-05T18:11:00.000+08:00

irritated.

2006-09-05T16:39:00.000+08:00

wheee. nice pic.((:

You're gone from here

And soon you will disappear

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right

So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same

It may sound absurd...

but don’t be naive

Even heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed...

but won’t you concede

Even heroes have the right to dream

It is not easy to be me

(Wake me up)

Wake me up inside

(I can’t wake up)

Wake me up inside

(Save me)

call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)

bid my blood to run

(I can’t wake up)

before I come undone

(Save me)

save me from the nothing I’ve become

struggle

2006-09-05T16:31:00.000+08:00

uhuh.

Concentration is the key to your success today -- so keep your eye on the ball if you want to win! The goal you have in your sights right now is yours to lose, so don't worry about anyone taking the power out of your hands. You should try to avoid flighty people, even in social situations ... their unfocused energy could cause you to lose your focus as well. True friends will give you the space you need, so don't hesitate to ask for it.

lovejo.w too. happy ? hah
off to study econs. bye. <3

leave n stay.

2006-09-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

okay. at home now.. whee. haha. stupid wanting. let us watch this lesbian show. er. wads the title. oh. imagine you and me . omg retarded show. me and shixuan were like ha. mad. and noisy .lol. sorry wanting and jerrold. hahah. but cool show. check out wad the two lesbian partner said to each other . (as shown below) haha. haha. alrighty.econs time. meanwhile. check out this pic. cools. haha. from wanting actually.

BLAH.

2006-09-04T18:08:00.000+08:00

A:"dont forget me."

B:"i wont remember anything else."

2006-09-04T17:03:00.000+08:00

alrighty. long update it shall be.. hmmm.
currently at wanting's hse. yizha. jerrold. shixuan are here too ((: kay.. thats totally random.. hmm. been pissed with myself recently. hmm. no idea why. okay. perhaps one is that. erm. i haven been muging. okay. maybe u guys will be likethinking that i mug a lot already. but its not really true. like onli ten percent or maybee twenty is in my brain. ah. yeah. i really hope i wont get retainnn. really:( wish me all the best then.. haha. hmmm. anyway. other than that.. i think my life is fine. enjoying life... i wish. hhmm. thinking abt a lot of things recently. .hmm... tinking... hmm... parents just came back from malayisa and i wana thank yuting and wanting for spending two nights at my house. sacrificing there two nights with me. listening to me tok. thanks dude. love u guys. of course and also ernest .char. and zhaoey. for being there for me recently. hahah.a okay. kinda random. and to the rest of my friends. thanks for brightening up my day since i was bornnn.hahaha.okay. nono. i am notgoing to commit suicide. no worries. alrighty. hmm. oh got this carnival thingy then sat this uncle ringo ride/ wth lor/ now my shoulder got like a bruise. :( and my shoulder is hurting. i want someone help me massage. wakak ..okay. i shld go socialise and spend more time with my friend already.haha. before i get retain. enjoy life (:

It's hard enough just passing the time
When I can't seem to get you off my mind
And where is the good in goodbye?
Tell me why, tell me why

2006-09-03T18:23:00.000+08:00

)':

anyway.

happy birthday char.<3

2006-09-03T17:10:00.000+08:00

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

2006-09-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

tuition just ended. shitty mood.
wadeva. blahh.

make a difference.

2006-09-02T22:17:00.000+08:00

emo.

wads wrong with me.?

2006-09-02T00:28:00.000+08:00

la dee dum
doing history essay now.

kinda enjoy doing it. like revision ((:

madness.

“A hero abroad, a traitor at home.” Discuss this view of Gorbachev.

2006-08-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

i miss

fireworks

2006-08-26T19:38:00.000+08:00

life is weird.

really.

2006-08-26T19:09:00.000+08:00

Baby, Don't You Break My Heart Slow

(Duet with Emily Sailers of the Indigo Girls)

Lyrics by Vonda Shepard

Music by Vonda Shepard & James Newton Howard

I like the way you wanted me

Every night for so long baby

I like the way you needed me

Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you

Was I mistaken

Do you say, do you say what you mean?

I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie

I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye

I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know

But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me

Every night for so long baby

And I like the way you'd say my name

In the middle of the night

While you were sleeping

I was believing in you

Was I mistaken

Do you mean, do you mean what you say?

When you say our love could last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie

I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye

I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know

But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever

While I wait at home still thinking that we're together

I wanted our love to last forever

I was believing in you

I'd rather you be mean than love and lie

I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye

I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know

But baby don't you break my heart slow

2006-08-26T19:01:00.000+08:00

"Back At One"

by Brian McKNIGHT

It's undeniable...

that we should be together...

It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never

The basis you need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,

Then let me show you now that I'm for real...

If all things in time, time will reveal...

Yeah...

One... you're like a dream come true...

Two... just wanna be with you...

Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me...

Four... repeat steps one through three...

Five... make you fall in love with me...

If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One (yeah)

So Incredible... the way things work themselves out...

And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe...

And undesirable... for us to be apart...

Never would of made it very far...

Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart

Cause...

One... you're like a dream come true

Two... just wanna be with you

Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me

Four.. .repeat steps one through three

Five... make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One......

Say farewell to the dark night...

I see the coming of the sun...

I feel like a little child... whose life has just begun...

You came and breathed new life

Into this lonely heart of mine...

You threw out the life line... just in the Nick of Tiimmmeeee.....

One... you're like a dream come true

Two... just wanna be with you

Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me... girl and...

Four... repeat steps one through three

Five... make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One.

2006-08-24T18:43:00.000+08:00

CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY WROTE THIS LIKE YEARS AGO.
NOT MEANT TO HAVE ANY HIDDEN MEANING OR WAD SO EVER. jUSt LIKE COOL. LOL. OKAY. RANDOM.

Forgotten Love
why did you leave me...
ever tot how i feel.
how lonely, how sad..
but wells, you dun, since....
you left me..

leaving me all alone..
with no one by my side..
hoping that you will return..
but disappointment soon came..

you came (CHEERS)
but with her(BOO)
my heart drops and darkness filled me..
the endless night turning here and there..
looking out for u..
through my window pane..

as day past,
the love.
the passion.
doesnt seem to last..

broken

i thank all my friend..
for the care and concern..
you guys have been providing..
i m glad that u have me..
in ur heart.

my friendship with you last..
until years past..
we had a tiff.
and finally,
metal rust after a drop of water...

rules are meant to be broken
but friendship is not..
to lose a friend, is one 's greatest lost..
i just hope that.
we will remain friendz forever.

*
(metal rust, after a drop of water.. is like.. a drop of water can make the metal (shiny) turns into rust... this shows that how weak friendship can be..a drop of water might be like a little tiny problem that cause the friendship to be ruin :( get it??)

fATe

is there such a thing called fate?

if u are late..

is it that u are fated?

or its just plain late..

i met u once is that fate?

i realli hope to see u again..

but is there fate?

the light dims

as the music sounds

the surrounding becomes dark

as ur not with me

u are right in saying,

that the earth can live without u

but i cant

i simply cant

cant.

Parallel lines

two straight lines

as y=mx+c

will only meet once...

once..

so does that mean that u will only see ur true love

only once?

once?

i dun quite get it

two Parallel lines will only meet one day..

and it depends how long it will be

or rather

how short

and i wonder

where is the other one who has the same gradient as me?

the one i will be

no matter

how long

how short.

but the one that i will be with

2006-08-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

weijie:"imagine and u will be "